Fresh Start Here

after going thru so many different blogs, lets hope i settle with this one
try to minimize the bitching, be more positive on the key pad....well....one step at a time
there are so many things on my mind and so many different kinds of emotions going thru right now

though i know i aint alone
many out there are going thru the same thing too
just wish there's someone i know that i can really confide in without holding back
girls and guys are the same
we can claim BFF and tell each other everything, so we claim
though in reality
i dont think that IS reality
i've never been able to make many true friends whom i can talk to about anything
acquaintances and "friends you do stuff with", but not confide in fully

i have a very good friend overseas right now
after moving away, i realize just how much i really miss the social life
aint just talking about the clubs and parties but the ppl i hung out with
the different groups of cultures and the travelling
but yeah she's like sister i never had
though yes there are still things i cant bring myself to tell anyone
not even for myself to hear outloud, how obscene they are
how deep inside i care what my sister would think of me
thinking back...there are many things i wish i could have done better to be there for her
to be a better best friend for her
now that i've learnt my lesson, life goes on

and life goes on and it should with no time wasted on regrets...

surprise myself sometimes at just how fast i really get over things though
fights, breakups, death...
been called emotionless, ice queen and cold bitch several times before
just because i dont dwell on what i cant change doesnt mean im heartless right?
shiet
Life is short, we gotta make the most out of it, whether it is for yourself or for others

and the story of my view on life shall continue...

its late...